Ahyh Unknown ~ DeSoto September 9, 2020

Ahyh, of DeSoto Illinois, having moved to Illinois from Mt. Juliet, Tennessee in March 2020, died
from complications of stage 4 metastatic prostate cancer on September 9, 2020 in his home.
Ahyh was born Mark Lee Huppert to Van and Merna Huppert in Ontario, California on May 8,
1958, one of the all-time easiest birthdays ever – 5/8/58. He did normal kid stuff until he won a
math contest in 9 th grade, and his inner genius blossomed. At Chapman University, he double-
majored in the Study of World’s Religions and Organ Performance, and minored in
Mathematics. After graduating cum laude, he went on to become a software developer for the
insurance and financial planning industry, eventually earning a patent. On Sundays, he played
the organ for local California churches.
Ahyh was a profound thinker, dreamer and doer. His spiritual searching led him to his guru, Dan
Bloxsom, who introduced him to the magnificence of God’s Holy Name. He was soon immersed
in the teachings, and eventually was given the mantle and responsibility of carrying on the
wisdom. His life was so deeply changed that he changed his name to Ahyh, the ancient Hebrew
word meaning “I will be.”
On September 2, 2005, Ahyh married me sight unseen, after reading my spiritual autobiography
and a six-week courtship via cell phone and online. He moved to Tennessee to be with me.
Together, we wrote several spiritual and religious books* and numerous articles. He was at his
happiest when sharing knowledge with others. Whatever he had to give, he gave freely.
Ahyh is survived by me, his widow Libby Maxey; his three adult step children Aaron Maxey,
Laura Maxey Perry and Emily Maxey; his brother Bob Huppert; sister Christina Huppert Bunn;
adult step children from “my 90’s marriage” John and Melissa; step grandchildren, nieces,
nephews and friends around the United States.
Enough of the facts; now for the good part.
Before we were married, we had a long-distance relationship and sent little things back and
forth to each other; pictures, gifts, funny cards. One hot day in August I received a compact disc
(CD) of some of his favorite tunes with his deep, velvety voice-over comments. It was titled
“Love Songs for Libby,” songs that described his loneliness and longing, what love meant to
him, and his pledge to me. It was an indescribable gift then, and remains so. The remainder of
this Eulogy will be written with his words to me and the lyrics of the songs. Ahyh’s voice will be
regular type; lyrics italicized. List of songs at the end.
Ahyh began “Let’s call these ‘songs about me.’ Sorry to be self-indulgent, but I don’t have any
songs about us yet. I want something I can never have 1 or so it seemed, for the longest time.

Content, satisfied, even happy…wondering why I was destined to be without a partner, the
constant longing…
Heaven holds a sense of wonder 2 I drove 35 miles to a business meeting, listening to this song
on auto-repeat all the way, full of anger about me, the world, ministry, computers – the usual.
As I walked into the restaurant, this song was playing. And as miraculous, incredible and
mathematically impossible as that event was, it seems like an everyday occurrence compared
to the likelihood of meeting you.
All the spoils of a wasted life – all of this for you 3 These songs aren’t cheery; they are intense.
But if intensity frightens or bothers you, then run away. The destiny I’ve chose, all becoming
clear One cannot do what we do and hope to do in the ministry without it sometimes being
intense. I can still feel you, even so far away…
Libby, [you’ve] saved my life in a manner of speaking, for you’ve given me back the power to
believe 4 Such love, the promise and hope of new life; I am and will remain deeply grateful to
God and to you, and to the knowledge that they are the same.
The moon and Venus are having a lovely conjunction this evening. In the night sky, they are as
close together as they can be without actually touching. I like that.
The next song is my pledge to you: to receive all that you have to give, to be there in all times
and all cases. You can ask for anything you want, anything at all and I WILL understand it. You
owe me nothing for giving the love that I give. You owe me nothing for caring the way that I
have. I give you thanks for receiving; it’s my privilege, and you owe me nothing in return 5
Well, maybe just one thing: you have to breathe out, so I can breathe you in 6 I’ve loved this song
from the first time I heard it – I just didn’t imagine I would ever play it for anyone. If everything
could ever feel this real forever; if anything could ever be this good again…
Libby, my love: If the sun refused to shine, I would still be loving you. When mountains crumble
to the sea, there will still be you and me. Kind woman, I give you my all…My love is strong, with
you there is no wrong. Together we shall go until we die. Thanks to you, it will be done, for you
to me are the only one. 7
The next song I’m calling “Libby’s Song” although it goes by another title. I imagine this is
something akin to what will be going through your heart and mind as you’re on the plane flying
out here [to California]. Made up my mind to make a new start; going to California with an
aching in my heart 8 …Tryin’ to find a woman who’s never, never been born, standing on a hill in
my mountain of dreams, telling myself it’s not as hard, hard, hard as it seems Maybe that
woman has been born. Every day, I come to believe it more and more. You are a gift,
unimagined and unimaginable.

I trust and hope this audio love letter reaches you with an open heart. This next song, to me, is
the future. An entire universe of evolving, God-conscious beings? Oh my goodness, I want to be
with you in the parade. I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected…to feel
inspired, to fathom the power, to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to swing on the
spiral of our divinity and still be a human 9 …Oh, my God! Will you join me? Will you please? My
life for you; I cannot do this alone. Please? We may just go where no one’s been, we’ll ride the
spiral to the end…spiral out, keep going.
Whether it’s [the audio love letter] too much or not enough, whether you want to hear it every
day or never again, it all okay. I love you so, so much. Ah please, talk to me. Won’t you please
come talk to me? I can imagine the moment, breaking out through the silence, all the things
that we both might say. And the heart it will not be denied until we’re both on the same damn
side, all the barriers blown away. 10 I hope something within this odd intensity touched you in a
positive way, but yes or no, just talk to me.
I will always love you, and I will see you very soon!” – End

We saw each other for the first time in the San Diego airport, and couldn’t take our eyes off
each other. Ahyh said “Honey? I know what our first song about us should be. In your eyes, the
light, the heat – in your eyes, I am complete. In your eyes, I see the doorway to a thousand
churches, in your eyes the resolution to all the fruitless searches…Oh, I wanna be that complete
in your eyes 11
This was Ahyh, my darling husband. I wanna be that complete again in your eyes. Rest in peace
and power. I will always love you, and in the timelessness of eternity, I will see you very soon.

Libby Maxey
September 30, 2020

1 Something I Can Never Have, Nine Inch Nails
2 Silence, Delerium featuring Sarah McLachlan
3 The Great Below, Nine Inch Nails
4 The Power to Believe, King Crimson
5 You Owe Me Nothing in Return, Alanis Morrissette
6 Everlong, Foo Fighters
7 Thank You, Led Zeppelin
8 Going to California, Led Zeppelin
9 Lateralus, Tool
10 Come Talk to Me, Peter Gabriel
11 In Your Eyes, Peter Gabriel
*I Am Liberty, Signs & Wonders, One Becomes One, The Future Testament (all available on Amazon)


  1. Harold says

    I have just learned of the transformation of the one called Ahyh into the spirit of AHYH, or “”I WILL BE”… I am sure he is not lost or forgotten, but eternally lives.
    I think God dreams and or imagines, so that IT/HE/SHE has purpose and self reflection or self actualization and in that , have meaning without loneliness . The sleep is to temporarily forget the unimaginable fact of being alone and a “SINGULARITY”. Division of it’s self becomes necessary to have knowledge through individualized personalities and experiences so that purpose and meaning is realized in all manifestations, form ,and formless realities.
    My heart felt condolences to all that knew and knows Ahyh, aka AHYH..
    LOVE and Peace to all creation and creatures……

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